Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I look at that face and I see trust.
I look into those eyes and I see love.
I look at her and all I can do is hold back the tears.
Tomorrow we go in to meet with the vet about the seizure activity that has sprung back to life. She's had three in the past month and a half. The last one was on Thursday of last week. Kev was home with her. I should say the last one we know of.
It hurts me to know that she's probably going to have to go onto medication that may alter who she is. I don't want to lose my dog.
I won't know to what extent things might change until tomorrow. But tonight I am scared. I love her more than I ever thought was possible.
She trusts me and all I feel is that I'm letting her down with the thought of the drugs she'll have to be on. I know that it will be for the best, in the long run. But I also know that she won't be the same dog for a little while as her body and system adjusts to the meds. Four years ago she had a seizure in the early morning. We'd hoped it would be a one time thing.